SHE.HER.ME.

Saturday, July 29, 2006

TMR'S ESPLANADE.
gawd. STRESSED STRESSED STRESSED.
im lyk damn scared performance screw up lar. ):
it's the WHOLE day out.
tiring day. gosh.

first tym in weeks i got to slp so much?
kinda glad.
i mean.
the past few weeks have been really busy.
chiong-ing here and dere.
managed to slp till 930 tdy.
my mum came in n kp me lar.
so i decided to wake up.
den.
i fell aslp agn at 10 plus?
and agn at 1 plus?
LOLS.
feel so pigg tdy.
but I LOVE SLPING.
lols.

SOMEONE BLESS ME FOR TMR'S PERFORMANCE.
gawd.

blah blah.
so damn tired lar.
lools.

n den dere is pub AND rne outing on monday. X.X
n its meeting at NINEEEEE.
my sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.
BWAHS. i lose ANOTHER day of slp.
lols. XD

i practically slacked the whole day away.
AND IM HAPPY I DID. :D
i tink im mad. X)

Friday, July 28, 2006

38thstudentcouncilFOREVER. <333s.

i noe im not being fair to the sec1s and all.
but.
well. cant blame wad.
LOLS.

another BORING DAY.
started off with maths.
spent most of my tym dng chi.
cuz if dont do.
i tink leaf will kill me.

next was pe.
I SUCK AT BROAD JUMP LAR.
i TOTALLY carn jump. X.X
yep. so paiseh.
its lyk all of dem are jumping 140+ and 150+ AND 160+
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
blehs.

acc. sent to the library to borrow the.
margin of the water or wadeva lar.
for acc.
i read but dont understand.
so went to library lorh. lols.

history. SO BORING.
lol. almost fell aslp.
its lyk.
REUBEN, JIAMIN, JANE, DARYL, DEREK.
all slping leh.
i c already i oso wan slp lar.
n the cher didn care a heck.
so off i went to the toilet with kc. LOL.
wash face and fill water.

sci last lesson.
HOHOHO.
MR LEE FINALLY CAME IN.
no nazrul tdy.
his lesson is REALLY boring.
all of seemed to learn more in mr lee's ONE HOUR .
compared to nazrul's ONE WEEK.
lols.

den den.
afta schl. co.
it was raining.
and i was falling aslp. LOLS.

ohwell.
im tired.

thesunroseonceagn?

Thursday, July 27, 2006

i cringe as my heart aches.
wher is the sense of belonging that i want?

basically. nothing much bah.
was falling aslp during lessons due to my PUFFY eyes.
damnit. x.x
was hardly in any mood.

today chiong-ing hmwk.
freaking tired.
took mrt back with lisa?
lols.

okay. so im gona hafto do my eng n chi b4 both of the chers kill me.
oh and dere is co tmr. ):
performance is coming up. i really dont wan to perform. )):
0% confidence.

youdontnoehowenviousiamofyourfriendship.
itwasgreattobewithyou.

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

how i wish that time would just stop.

today was the investiture. )):
38th exco has officially stepped down.
it was more emotional than expected bah.
sec2s batch is a very emotional one. XD
basically i jus buay ta han lar.
the tears jus flowed lorh.
i dont wan the sec4s to leave. ):
wonder how it is gng to be lyk during farewell tis year.
dont even wana tink bout it.
i was lyk trying so hard not to cry during the invest.
if not ppl tink crazy or smth.
which i tink was wad the newcomers felt.
all the seniors sudenly started crying.
but I DONT CARE LORH.
omg im gona miss the sec4s. ):
got influence by cheryl lorh.
haii.

-itoldmyselfimnotsupposedtodothat.
istheresuchthingsasforever?
cuziwldreallywantthat.
38thstudentcouncilforever.((: <33s
happytobepartofit.
PROUDOFIT.

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

INVEST is tmr. )):
im NOT looking forward to it.
the beginning of a new year in council.
BOO.

today was SOOOO slpy.
hahas. my leg pain lar.
den was falling aslp during sel cum acc.
tt cailaoshi KEEP WALKING TO MY TABLE.
damnit.
tried sooooo hard to keep my eyes OPEN.
yay. i did it. AHAHAS.

afta schl had.
invest rehersal AGN.
yea. so its walk walk walk n walk.
BLAH.
the wind keeps blowing onto my hair.
which in turn makes my nose VVVVV itchy lar.
LMAO.
ooohwell.
left at bout 7.20.
reached home at 8?!
yea. but tdy dont really haf teevee to watch. so.
WADEVA.
lols.

suibian lar. im damn slpy now. o.o

-attitudee problem.
its lies with me.
i thot too deep.

Monday, July 24, 2006

AMELIA. i want to SLAP you.
lols. my name so nice can not. Y.U.L.I.N.
not EWW LIN. -.-
lol lol.

ONGTON. wahlau. no chi name den u still show me for wad. -.-

tdy ponned co agn. =X
linlaoshi is going to SCREW ME ON FRIDAY. bwahs.
ohwell. it was self prac anw. WAHAHAHAS.
had the. wads tt.
yes. invest rehersal.
bleh. my leg damn pain lar. hahas.
invest coming soon.
sec4s stepping dwn ler.
well actaully dey ALREADY stepped dwn. LMAO.

im lyk SO TIRED.
boo. shall not post ler. lols.

i wan you to noe.
im not her substitute.
and im not willing to be.

Sunday, July 23, 2006

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO ANGLICAN HIGH.
hahas.

ohwell.
yest passed in a rush.
kinda flew by.
MY SATURDAY.
boo.
the saturday meant for slacking.

friday:
went off at 11.10
COOL. missed hist n math.
HAHAS.
then went for rehersal.
gosh. was feeling sick bout the costume
but afta a while.
realised tt it was not tt bad.
if u compare with guitar's PINK N BLACK.
i mean GUYS wearing HOT PINK? *amused*
lols. n silver gowns?
well. im starting to lyk the costume. lols.
MINUS the tripping part. DEFINITELY.
hahas.
so afta the rehersal.
went off to chiong pub.
stayed till bout 9 plus? lols.
but. ya. thnx to graci's fren for the help at the linkway.
had pizza for dinner.
cher qia mah. lols.
then eat eat eat.
talk talk talk. den left me cheryl reuben jiajie kahwee edison andrew.
jiajie went off ler den andrew went to send him to the gate.
den reuben hid andrew's bag. -.-
so we let him find bag den we went off. LOLS.
my dad was dere le lar! den he nvr call me.
lols. sry dad!
dropped cheryl off at mrt station n reuben at the bus stop.
went home.
bathedn SLPT.
hahas.

saturday:
went to bfast with mum n dad.
at peifen auntie hse dere.
the food was NOT nice.
reached schl at 8?
deco at the fountain was dwn.
LINKWAY BALLOONS BURSTED.
well some.
tried to chiong to put everything tghter.
ended at bout 945?
went for celeb.
was doodling. LOLS.
i LOVE the poppers.
damn chio lar.
went to council room to get blazer attire to change.
went to eat lunch.
avt. blah.
left at 245 to go to expo.
helped to put brocheres n all.
BLAH. cheap labour.
damnit.
6 the reception started.
was BUSY.
den wen reception ended.
kind of.
went to the other table.
didn c auntie alison.
WELL. I NVR SEEN HER B4.
lols.
talk talk.
den wen first dish served went in to sell books.
we earned $484! hahas.
den joey showed me someTHING.
n i cldn stop laughing.
okay.
den. ya lorh. all those alumi rock.
"how much is this book. orh 10 bucks arh. okay lorh."
WALAU.
my feet almost broke.
den afta dey cut cake.
went off liao.
damn tired.
drank cereal went reached home.
cuz haven eat dinner.
bathed lar. DUH.
den slpt.

woke up with a back ache and feet ache.
damnit.

but overall.
it was rather enjoyable. ^^

HANLIN. u c say u bringing ur ic on monday.
BETTER CONTAIN URE CHI NAME.
dont try scam me. LOLS.

thepromiseimadetomyself.
idontwanagethurtbyyouanymore.

Thursday, July 20, 2006

gawd.
is this lyk the most busyy time in sec schl life?
WHEN UR SCHL HAPPENS TO BE CELEBRATING ITS 50TH ANNI?
wtf.
ya.

and GUESS WHAT.
the rehersal ends at two plus?
and there is dazu AFTER that.
damnit.
so if im going for dazu.
it means i highly doubt i can go home any earlier b4 dinner.
if im NOT going for dazu.
means im pangseh-ing chinhwee AGN.
ohman.
I HATE DECISION MAKING.

but tmr i get to pon hist n math! XD
so shuang!~
HAHAHAS.

kays so im off to do DNT.
LISA GOH AND CHERYL MUN.
U OWE ME ONE.

-tired.

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

GOSH.
im freaking tired.
was 3/4 dead during pub.
got so fed up with the freaking teachers.
one moment they want this nxt moment dey dont wan.
THEY SO CLEVER DEY GO DO LAR.
den nw got dnt. no tym to do.
everyday. chiong chiong chiong. WTH.
i hardly have time for other things.
really cannot take it liao.
the weekends seem to have disappeared.

it is so hard trying to be strong.
the pieces are crumbling down.

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

stressed.

someone tell me that i shd cry.
tell me that its OKAY to cry.
to scream. to vent out all my frustrations
omfg. stressed lyk some shyt.
tmr. hafto go out with reuben to buy the materials for the deco.
then. dnt to do wen i reach home.
thurs. got the bloody survey and dazu.
fri. got full dress rehersal. den got shuttle between the tower hall and the linkway. cuz graci got netball training.
saturday. investiture rehersal.
sunday. tuition.
WTF.

i mean wth lar?
i hardly haf tym to rest.
all the bloody homework.
damnit.
tell me. reassure me tt everything will be fine.
haiix.

the co costume.
the skirt is bloody long.
need to fold the skirt somemore.
n its still long. and the blouse. LMAO.
i cant imagine running arnd the SCHL in tt costume and HIGH HEELS.
someone SHOOT ME.

suddenly everything comes to me.
it smacks at me right in the face.
insecurities.
i suddenly lose all trust.
fucked up.
n its all happening in the wrong time.
i really feel lyk giving up.
i dont noe y i even bother to try.

it's my problem.
it lies within me.
its a struggle within myself.

Monday, July 17, 2006

destiny

went to watch pirates today! XD
hahas. went with sheena n kc. amelia the PANGSEH-ER.
den the guys came along. -.-
stuupid lar.
den i drank so much water i wanted to pee halfway during the movie. XP
so wen end tt tym chiong to the toilet!¬
hahas.

oh n nazrul came for science tdy!
must say lar. he at least tried to make an effort to engage the cls.
not EXACTLY vv sucessful though. lols.
crossword puzzle. X.X
lol. but 2j guys are lyk. LOL. gaoxiao.

tmr gotta go collect the costume. GOSH.
lols. then staying back for pub? yupp.
promised ler. cuz i didn go tdy.
well i'll try my best.

ooh n too bad heok didn show the thing in cls tdy.
lols. sheena managed to save her face. LOLS.
but its so short lar.
i tink we're lyk so screwed. HURHUR.

i tell u arh. got tis goldfish in the fishtank at home.
damn cute.
my dad bought bout 10 goldfishes on sunday?
i almost went mad cuz i HATE goldfishes.
the way they open their mouth is lyk YUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKK.
yea. but. tis fish rgt.
lols.
the tail is teeeeeny weeeny.
lols.
so its damn NOT proportionate.
hahas. and it always got trouble trying to swim downwards. lols!

i guess.
it's jus meant to be.
born a loner die a loner.
no matter how hard i try. i jus cant do it.

Sunday, July 16, 2006

mood swing.?
jealousy maybe.

went to sheena's hse today.
straight afta tuition.
not really lar. cuz i went hm to put dwn all my tuiton stuffs den zhao.
but my dad going loyang point so i took his car. HAHAS. dad rocks.
took bout a few hrs. its is damn simple lar.
but chao ji lame.
hahas.
kept digressing. lols.

went home at bout 6 plus.
ate dinner watched teevee. and pia chi lorh.
i tink heok shd gth.lols.
den ame helping with geog.
GOSH AME I LOVE YOUU!! XD <33333s.
ya. and im so screwed. haven STARTED my sci yet.
i tink tmr's common test.
i fail ler.
haii. wish me goood luck. hahas.

Saturday, July 15, 2006

suddenly.

fell aslp yest at lyk. 8?
lols. muz haf been really tired lar. LOLS.
ya. watched finsh teevee den went to my mum's room.
N I HAVEN BATHE YET.
so disgusting. ya i noe.
so my mum dragged me out of bed AGN.to do n bathe.
and i went to slp with my hair wet. lols.
whoopsie.
lols.

slack day yest.
HAHAS.
co. OMG SO PISSED.
bloody linlaoshi lar.
say wad " i tel u all arh. nxt tym i choose song which dont have suona n make u sit through it arh."
translated le lar. lols.
WAH.I WOULD GLADLY AGREE LAR.
bloody idiot.

monday's test is SCIENCE.
ya im so screwed.
dont understand a thing.

SHYTT.

today celeb cuzzie bdae. ! XD
hahhas.
still in waiting.
afta her's is my bro. THEN ITS MY!!
HAHAS.
omg i cant wait for the prezzies! lols.
muz start hinting to my mum ler. LOLS.

so confused.
you confuse me.

Thursday, July 13, 2006

there was a full moon this mrng. ((:

today was slackk. lols.
had. chi hist music dnt.
and ya. nth much lorh. lols.

the sec2 enrichment thingy coming ler.
i tink its lamee. X)
so ime ither taking golf or bowling.
golf is jus use the stick to whack the bloody ball.
golf. ltr my arms fall off. LMAO.
both nvr try b4. so mayb i'll grow to lyk it.

heok called me up to do zaoju tdy.
pretty stupid. X.X
hist was slack. basically jus copying ans off the screen.
music. the suona thing was lamee. LOLS.
ya i noe it sounds lyk a duck.
but we're IMPORTANT PPL LORH.
hah. dont underestimante us. (a bit over confindence har? lols. )
dnt. yea. we were drawing banananas.
we had the horny banana piggy bank.
banana cordless phone. ( cant imagine )
banana sunglasses ( mr tay said tt it looked lyk bikini )
WTH? i was the one hu DREW IT.
damnit. lols.
then. yea. we were drawing flying pigs. LOLS.
the horny pig was KERENSA.
it even had wings which was powered by fuel. lols.
is it fuel?? cant rmb. lols.
afta schl me kc n sheena went to simei.
discussed the 38degrees thingy.
yea. then i was jinx-ing their phone. lols.
chao ji gaoxiao lar.
then went to popular.
got a new notebook for home use.
took bus 9 hm with sheena.
stuuupid kc dont wan take bus.
KERENSA U IDIOT.
lols.

watched teevee.
fell aslp. =X
until my mum came home and forced me into the toilet to bathe.
gfmh was nice.
bwah. my eyes were watery. LMAO.

tmr got co.
which means esplanade is drawing closer.
i dont wan disappoint myself and drag co dwn.

haii. my mum is going for the concert.
which means added pressure.

shoutbacks:
jiaye: okay. i'll add NOW. XD
jenna: i'll add now too! lols. ((:
ame: YES I NOE. lyk duh? dont be lame. wahahhas. XD the cleer family rock. LOLS.
kerensa: HAHAS. so tt ppl will take note mah.
binzz: HAHAS. okays. i have relaxed. n dere is CO TMR. boo.
chimeng: hahas. it was so sudden lorh. lols. it was lyk zi-highing on the stage. so gaoxiao.
sheena: ya lah ya lah. lols. im finding new one mahhhhh. lols.

im confused.
gimee some time to sort out my thots.

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

wait.
gimme a sec to tink of wad i wanted to say.

oh. i oso dont noe leh.
lols.
hmm. woke up at 5 to study tingxie tdy.
stuuupid. tingxie is TMR. damnit.
30 mins of my slp wasted.
additional 15 min cuz my mum n dad keep trying to wake me up aat 445. shyttie.
took the bus a bit half aslp. lols.
reached schl. cld hear the bloody clarence blowing his dizi away.
n i thot sound travels UPWARDS. n im downwards. -.-

chi first period. went through the text.
showed the video. was chao LAMO lar. lols.
math nxt lessson.
that stupid ma lian. u can go eat shyt lar.
say wad. "i really dont noe hw the schl chooses councilors"
lyk he is any better.

sci. nazrul was going through wksht.
realised more than half the class hates him.
i mean come on.
he is a trainee. how much can u expect lar.
so i m damn amazed that he still comes to lesson.
hist. eugene ong came in so on time.
went through some boring txt. BLEH. XP

eng. did the argumentative essay.
n i suck at it. cuz i cldn find any points to rite.
n my counter arguement seemmed stronger than my point. -.-
yea its retarded. but. i really dont noe wad to write bah.
afta schl assembly.
i tink the show was retarded. chao lame lar.
then the sing along part. WALAU.
suddenly announce say wad.
all sec2 n sec3 councillors go n stage.
i was lyk WTH?!
so we jus stood at the back den zi high a while.

got meeting at the church century for al esplanade performers.
i ponned. LOL. oppsie. =X
den waited in cls. boring shyt.
read 8days. waited for dem to start.
went to council rm to find MUN. den started. LOL.
yea. den it was damn lame lar. the cup of dirty water spilled TWICE.
lols. den ya lar. ehh.
took bus back with reuben jiajie nicholas n jinfeng.
stupid lar. ya. den i decided to zi bi since iw as the onli girl
and so i did. HAHAS.
it was quite nice lar.
n xcept tt jiajie was laughing damn loudly? lols.

reached hm at bout 715.
AHH. i missed 15 min of teevee.
but at least the nice part haven over yet. HAHAS.

investiture is come in bout 14 days? arnd dere.
and esplanade is coming in bout a few more days afta investiture.
im lyk so screwed.
i have ZERO confindece botu the performance.
cuz if i dont blow or vv out of tune during the important parts.
i'll jus screw up the WHOLE performance. shyt lar.

sometimes i jus feel lyk slpig and nvr waking up agn.
and im glad i found someone hu has the same thinking. ((:
mayb we can pair suicide. XD

im a loner.
and outisider.
someone u can nvr n will nv be able to understand.
but u really make me feel so left out.
status change?
how i wish i cld jus disapeear frm tis world.
i dont noe wad to do.

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

DAMN THAT IDIOT HU STOLE MY 6 BUCKS.
FFFFCCCCCUUUKKKK.
26 BUCKS LOST IN 2 WEEKS.
DAMNIT.
AND UU STOLE AME'S TWENTY OSO.
U CAN JOLLY WELL GO TO HELL AND EAT SHIT.
but return the money b4 u go off.
SHYT U.

Monday, July 10, 2006

maybe it's time.
i guess i'll presume tt u've died.
so tt i take it the forever.
im just stupid.

CO WAS NOT BAD TDY.
HAHAS.
im serious.
linlaoshi was in a pretty good mood.
so he didn nag. ((:
HAHAS. SHUANG~
so it was not bad.
but the. saturday was relly relly CHAM.
ohwells. and STUPID MERVYN nvr come agn.

discussed proposal with liting n edison ler.
graci went home. lol.
i couldn find her lar.
i'll tell her tmr to c wad she tinks.

went to com lab during geog.
partnered amelia.
WE RAWK. hahas.
den was surfing arnd my blg the links.
jenna! so sry. i'll put up asap.

you make me feel like an outsider.
both.
you make me rather choose to be alone.
then look like a loser nxt to u two.

Sunday, July 09, 2006

sry ppl.. have been relly lazyy recently.. HARHAR.
ohwell..
trying to pia out geog proj..
shytt lar..

today wrld cup finals..
so mayb i'll stay up to do geog until 150 den watch bah..
i'll c first.. LOL..

tution got two new ppl tdy.. ((:
at least.. hahas..
kays. update more tmr! XD

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

SHYT THAT FARKING IDIOT HU STOLE MY TWENTY BUCKS.
YOU CAN GO TO HELL.
WHETHER IT IS A PRANK OR NOT.
AND REUBEN YAP.
PAY UP MY TEN BUCKS.
MY PATIENCE IS WEARING OFF.

holy shyt lar.
so frigging pissed.
that idiot took 10 bucks.
then took another 10 bucks afta tt.
KNS.

today's lessons were passable bah.
xcept tt kenny has a hearing problem.
LMAO. told him to help me n sheena get a coffee tis mrng.
was falling aslp.
i told him "MOCHA"
and he came back with "POKKA" green tea.
yep and i was bout to faint.

oh n sheena cant pronounce TOYS.
she pronouce tt tym.
it sounds lyk TOINS.
LMAO.
kc oso!
her YESTERDAY is
YAS TER DAY.
lol!!

kay. i hate homework and i hate homework.
GOSH I HATE HOMEWORK.

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

so soory ppl.
jus cldn resist this skin!
hahhas.
i'll change it soon.
jus got SO SICK of the old skin.
HAHAHHAHAS.
so cute rgt. XD

looks are lyk SO deciving.
didn noe he was tt sort ppl hu wld bitch arnd.
totally surprised.

ohwell.
almost died in lessons tdy?
felt lyk falling aslp. LMAO.
i was sick. so wasn my fault rgt.
LOL!!

afta sch went to watch match.
results were quite predictable.
AH ROCKS
lol.
haf lyk PILES of hmwk jus cuz i was lazy to do.
dnt, sci wksht, geog research, acc research.
im lyk SO SCREWED.
boo.

tmr got coral agnst dunman high.
mayb i'll go n watch. BWAHAHAS.
k. tt's all folks! ~~

REUBEN YAP OWE $$ PAY $$.
!#$%^&%^$(Q$^$*$#%*%^#$Y%$@#
oh n u oso owe raynor n sheena ten bucks too.

Monday, July 03, 2006

I TINK FLU JUS SUCKS.
ya.. tdy was supposed to go kbox with the other jayers..
and i ended up at home with FLU.
totally sucks.
frm saturday till nw and the freaking flu has yet to go away.
and i dont wan to go c a doctor.
i hate going to the doctors cuz u hafto wait.
BOO.
and the medicine is not working EITHER.
i tried chloro and hydrozine but neither works.
mayb im gona try taking my parents medicine if nth still works.
damnit. but its lyk 25 grams? and chloro is onli 4 grams?
ltr i die or smth. lol.
i have been slping lyk some pig oso.
bleh. i slp till bout 11 plus today.
yest i fell aslp on the sofa and was too lazy to get up until bout 1030 wen mum had to wake me up and get me to go into the room.
slp lyk a PIG.
took panadol and one more cholro tis mrng cuz the oter one finished ler.
lyk so shyttie.
did my homework.
pon tution yesterday.
went to chinyee's hse to celebrate her bday.
ya basically tt's all.
im lyk bout to die here.
OH. AND I HEARD FROM LIHAN TT LINLAOSHI TRIPPED ON STAGE YEATERDAY.
GOSH IT TOTALLY LIFTED MY MOOD.
if onli he had tripped AND fallen flat on his face.
i tink my flu imeediately okay ler.
LOL.

-suddenly it all became so clear.